so today I start my first real job.

Wearng : Magic charms, work shirt, jeans, boots.
Watchng : Obscurus Lupa
Readng : Mediator

'm very excited but I would be lying to you if I told you I wasn't a little scared. I'm worried that I'll get dangerous voices while on the job.
I hope this dosent happen but to be safe  wore protective charms. I'm watching funny videos.
( http://thatguywiththeglasses.com ) I'm n a pretty good mood. This is good because they say my voices are based around depresson. I think this is bull but they seem to know what their doing


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Today was weird.
Watching: Avatar Legend of Korra
Eating: Jaw breaker
Wishing: I could sleep

I have a new voice. Her name is Orange. she seemed sweet enough at first until she told me t cut myself

I have a new voice.


Eating: Pie
Listening: To Greenday
Reading: My book

She calls herself Teal for some reason. She's not very sweet but she's perfectly harmless. Just a bit of a brat. the only thing that stands out about her is that her hair is, like her name, Teal. This resembles one of my other voices , blue. But I like Blue. Blue is sweet and kind.
She is again harmless just not very nice to me. In a way she reminds me of my devil spawn of a sister. She told me I was ugly and had all the grace and beauty of fresh roadkill. When you live with my sister coments like these don't really bother you.
I hope she goes away

some funny/ amazing youtube videos
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qbRoW1cpP6E
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=odvnM0WS-XU
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Js3_0g7ZcY8

Oh where to begin.
Eating: a carrot
Listening: to Murder city
Drinking: water

I'm on a hill
In Sonoma county
At a cabin
Because my bratty sister chased me out of the house.

So on that note I have some good news!!! the backround voices stopped. I think blogging may have really helped me. I feel much calmer and much less scared after I blog about tyem. Thanks to all of you who have been reading it! No new voices at the moment. today I just saw Cassia, Kendrick, and Red.
I'll tell you about Red later

Oh where to begin.
Eating: a carrot
Listening: to Murder city
Drinking: water

I'm on a hill
In Sonoma county
At a cabin
Because my bratty sister chased me out of the house.

So on that note I have some good news!!! the backround voices stopped. I think blogging may have really helped me. I feel much calmer and much less scared after I blog about tyem. Thanks to all of you who have been reading it! No new voices at the moment. today I just saw Cassia, Kendrick, and Red.
I'll tell you about red later

this is Kendrick. I'll draw more of them later.

ouch

Dirinking: lemon tea
Eating: cough drop
watching: legend of Korra ZOMG

God my throat hurts. I wish it would stop. Mom and dad say I might have strep throat. It feels like I'm swallowing knives D:
So any way I have a voice I wanted to discuss. I got this one at the last hospital I went to. She came out of a nightmare I had and kind of scares me.
Her name is Caroline. She's fifteen years old has short blonde hair and was decapitated. Not kidding you. Thats what the dream was about. Her mother finding her dead body.
When I woke up she was in my room on the vacant bed (they wouldn't let me have a room mate). She seemed very confused. There was blood all over her pink sweater and a red line of scar tissue running across her throat. I freaked out and they made me sleep in the hall for the rest of the night.
so yeah
till the next time

this is the first post from my cell phone.So yeah this is really exiting. I'm begining to learn the importance of blogging about my voices. More later

Still sick 


Listing to: Disturbia
Reading: Nothing D:
Drinking: Coffee


I have recently learned how to comunicate with the voices through my mind. 
This is really good for me. Before I had to speak to them out loud which let me tell you is all kinds of embarrassing. I mean people still notice when you randomly look away at someone who isn't there.
Also. Niccola Tesla saw my bird. 
At the last Hospital I was in I befriended a bird. She was a beautiful pigeon who I nicknamed "the bird that is worthy of respect" She was white with grey tips on her wings. I didn't know he saw her too. 

I just got sick :(


      It sucks. This is the first time I have been this sick since getting the voices (They started in May 2011) For reasons I don't quite understand I keep seeing different people I don't know at random. Usually this is happening right before I have a coughing fit/ vomiting. 
      
So far I'v only seen one voice I recognized. It was Cassia. So far she is my favorite voice. She has long black hair and blue green eyes. Her face is very thin and that kinda makes her look perpetually starved, but she is great. 
     
Think of Cassia like my Jiminy Cricket. She gives me advice tells me how to do certain things and tells me when I should seek help with things. Sometimes we just chat. 


But any way I hope I get better soon 

I have a new voice. 


His name is Kendrick. He's pretty talkative 


He's tall with a lean muscular build. Kendrick has curly red hair and dimples in his cheeks. His eyes are brown. I kinda like him (not like that though). He told me he's gay. 


Its still nice to talk to him though He went away for tonight but I hope I get to see him soon

sorry its been a while.


I was busy writing. For all three of you wondering The voices are causes by condition simpler to Schizophrenia. Unlike schizophrenia how ever my voices are based around depression. 


I recently started to sleep walk. Not to the kitchen or the living room,but miles away from my home. have you ever woken up in a strange place with sore feet wondering were the hell you are? Let me tell you there are few things worse.


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