I am in fact still alive

I'm going to start making vlogs...

Other than that I had to go to residential. Part of me wants to complain and say it sucked the other part of me wants to say i am now a better person for having that expeirence :)
MY VOICES ARE ALMOST COMPLETELY GONE :D :D:D

I was so happy at this development 

My apologizes

I have been very busy lately. I mostly work on my book. It seems now that its one of the few.things I enjoy doing. school is going to start soon so that means I will have to cut hack on ly writing which I al not looking forward to at all. Oh well life is nothing if not full of obstacles.
Speaking of which my sister is a cheerleader now. I try to be happy for her acheivment, but now her head has swollen to massive proportions. She acts like she's too good for us little people.
I have a new.voice. he calls himself Cane. I have no idea what he looks like because he always wears a mask. He scares me. He tells me to do very very bad things that I don't want to do. He's twice as bad as tic and toc. So that's something to worry about.
Well that's all for now.

With love your crazy girl
Scathach Danu

Where does the time go

Well sorry its been such a long time since I posted anything. Things have been super busy lately. Well let me fill you in on what's been going on...

I was having anxiety attacks Which led to me getting fired. They were worried I would get hurt on the job and they would get sued. Screw them.
I went tot the hospital for attempted suicide. I got the help i needed. I even made a friend and entered a writing contest with a short story I wrote at the hospital. It isn't over yet but I hope I win something.
I can't wait for school to start. And thank you all for reading this c: 

so today I start my first real job.

Wearng : Magic charms, work shirt, jeans, boots.
Watchng : Obscurus Lupa
Readng : Mediator

'm very excited but I would be lying to you if I told you I wasn't a little scared. I'm worried that I'll get dangerous voices while on the job.
I hope this dosent happen but to be safe  wore protective charms. I'm watching funny videos.
( http://thatguywiththeglasses.com ) I'm n a pretty good mood. This is good because they say my voices are based around depresson. I think this is bull but they seem to know what their doing


More Later

Today was weird.
Watching: Avatar Legend of Korra
Eating: Jaw breaker
Wishing: I could sleep

I have a new voice. Her name is Orange. she seemed sweet enough at first until she told me t cut myself

I have a new voice.


Eating: Pie
Listening: To Greenday
Reading: My book

She calls herself Teal for some reason. She's not very sweet but she's perfectly harmless. Just a bit of a brat. the only thing that stands out about her is that her hair is, like her name, Teal. This resembles one of my other voices , blue. But I like Blue. Blue is sweet and kind.
She is again harmless just not very nice to me. In a way she reminds me of my devil spawn of a sister. She told me I was ugly and had all the grace and beauty of fresh roadkill. When you live with my sister coments like these don't really bother you.
I hope she goes away

some funny/ amazing youtube videos
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qbRoW1cpP6E
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=odvnM0WS-XU
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Js3_0g7ZcY8

Oh where to begin.
Eating: a carrot
Listening: to Murder city
Drinking: water

I'm on a hill
In Sonoma county
At a cabin
Because my bratty sister chased me out of the house.

So on that note I have some good news!!! the backround voices stopped. I think blogging may have really helped me. I feel much calmer and much less scared after I blog about tyem. Thanks to all of you who have been reading it! No new voices at the moment. today I just saw Cassia, Kendrick, and Red.
I'll tell you about Red later

Oh where to begin.
Eating: a carrot
Listening: to Murder city
Drinking: water

I'm on a hill
In Sonoma county
At a cabin
Because my bratty sister chased me out of the house.

So on that note I have some good news!!! the backround voices stopped. I think blogging may have really helped me. I feel much calmer and much less scared after I blog about tyem. Thanks to all of you who have been reading it! No new voices at the moment. today I just saw Cassia, Kendrick, and Red.
I'll tell you about red later

this is Kendrick. I'll draw more of them later.

ouch

Dirinking: lemon tea
Eating: cough drop
watching: legend of Korra ZOMG

God my throat hurts. I wish it would stop. Mom and dad say I might have strep throat. It feels like I'm swallowing knives D:
So any way I have a voice I wanted to discuss. I got this one at the last hospital I went to. She came out of a nightmare I had and kind of scares me.
Her name is Caroline. She's fifteen years old has short blonde hair and was decapitated. Not kidding you. Thats what the dream was about. Her mother finding her dead body.
When I woke up she was in my room on the vacant bed (they wouldn't let me have a room mate). She seemed very confused. There was blood all over her pink sweater and a red line of scar tissue running across her throat. I freaked out and they made me sleep in the hall for the rest of the night.
so yeah
till the next time

this is the first post from my cell phone.So yeah this is really exiting. I'm begining to learn the importance of blogging about my voices. More later

Still sick 


Listing to: Disturbia
Reading: Nothing D:
Drinking: Coffee


I have recently learned how to comunicate with the voices through my mind. 
This is really good for me. Before I had to speak to them out loud which let me tell you is all kinds of embarrassing. I mean people still notice when you randomly look away at someone who isn't there.
Also. Niccola Tesla saw my bird. 
At the last Hospital I was in I befriended a bird. She was a beautiful pigeon who I nicknamed "the bird that is worthy of respect" She was white with grey tips on her wings. I didn't know he saw her too. 

I just got sick :(


      It sucks. This is the first time I have been this sick since getting the voices (They started in May 2011) For reasons I don't quite understand I keep seeing different people I don't know at random. Usually this is happening right before I have a coughing fit/ vomiting. 
      
So far I'v only seen one voice I recognized. It was Cassia. So far she is my favorite voice. She has long black hair and blue green eyes. Her face is very thin and that kinda makes her look perpetually starved, but she is great. 
     
Think of Cassia like my Jiminy Cricket. She gives me advice tells me how to do certain things and tells me when I should seek help with things. Sometimes we just chat. 


But any way I hope I get better soon 

I have a new voice. 


His name is Kendrick. He's pretty talkative 


He's tall with a lean muscular build. Kendrick has curly red hair and dimples in his cheeks. His eyes are brown. I kinda like him (not like that though). He told me he's gay. 


Its still nice to talk to him though He went away for tonight but I hope I get to see him soon

sorry its been a while.


I was busy writing. For all three of you wondering The voices are causes by condition simpler to Schizophrenia. Unlike schizophrenia how ever my voices are based around depression. 


I recently started to sleep walk. Not to the kitchen or the living room,but miles away from my home. have you ever woken up in a strange place with sore feet wondering were the hell you are? Let me tell you there are few things worse.


More later...

I hope you dont think Im an attention whore for blogging about my voices. They are very real and very frightening at times (though some I call my friends). Writing about them was my therepists idea and my friends at the last hospital I went to suggested I start a blog about them. when I get a new voice I'll let you know

so yeah first post. Exciting.
What should I talk about? 
Maybe a cool revenge spell?
My voices?
The color blue?

How about all of them?

Take a small box with drawers. On a small square piece of paper write your enemy's name in red ink (traditionally this is done with blood). Fold the paper three times and then put it in the bottom drawer of the box. Now sit back and laugh at all the bad things that are happening to said person. 


How about I tell you about my first voice? 

I saw my first one when I was four. At that age you don’t know much, but you do know that a strange man in your bedroom is a pretty bad thing.

He was humongous, bigger even than my dad. His shaggy blond hair was spiked upward. He was standing over my blocks. He saw me with my mouth open in shock.

“Oh I’m sorry” He smiled showing his pointy shark teeth. I noticed they were dripping with some red liquid. His voice boomed and was deep “Do you want to play”

At this point I screamed so loud I woke both my parents and my younger sister, Marisa. How could none of them see him! He was huge! After my mother had sufficiently calmed me down, she asked me to draw a monster. I being the creative child I was drew the monster crying in the corner of the room.

Mom told me that the dark was nothing to fear, and that the monster would protect me. I dubbed him “Sticky Teeth” because I was little and had an excuse to give my imaginary friend a stupid name. In the morning he was still there.

He stayed with me until I was six. After that he disappeared forever. Gone. 

Did you know there are an infinite number of possible shades. Each shade of blue can be modified slightly by adding a new colour, the possibilities are endless. As far as we know, there are more than fifty thousand shades of blue. Air Force Blue, Celeste, Egyptian blue, Maya Blue, Royal Blue, and Ultramarine are a few.