Why can't I see my charactets?

I wonder this frequently. It would make writing a lot easier... But sadly for me it dosent work that way. I have absolutely no control over the things I see which really sucks. If I could control that my life would be.much better
Sorry for the short post

by request My anime Boyfriends (Yes I am a sad sad child)

Deidara 

what can I say? I like em crazy and ponytailed XD

Sasori

fine it's just a little creepy that he's thirty five but I have heard of worse! He also turned himself into a human puppet ;-; Why do I have to be attracted to the weird ones?

Hidan

Cute but totally insane <3

Kakuzu

I just don't know any more ;-;

Gaara

the kazekage we all know and love <3

all of these guys belong to Masashi Kishimoto 

Please don't sue me. I have no cash ;-; I'm just a fan I have no life

Anime and my voices

     Well sorry its been so long and I have yet to follow through on my vlog ideas :/
     Today is the last day of school up until summer school. At this point in time I have amassed several anime boyfriends and love each and everyone of them to pieces much to the concern and disturbance of my friends and family.
     I think I like Anime s much because it distracts me from the voices so well <3 I wish you would understand...
     Well now I have to go.
     hugs and kisses
     all my love
     Your Crazy Girl <3

Last Minute Panic

I am nervous but happy. 

My stomach is in knots and I can hardly think straight. I wish I could just evaporate or go somewhere else. I only really want to see one person in AZ. My grandmother Mary Riddles. She is a little rough around the edges but I love her with all my heart <3. 

I'm nervous because a few of my relatives don't fully support my writing habits. They think I should get  out more. I tend to disagree. 

I plan on making a vlog on the road the link will be put up when we arrive 

Wish me luck!

    your Crazy Girl <3

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Why do we bother with these desperate dreams...

Well here I am again. I atribute me being here to my best friend Carly. She is truly the best and way more than I deserve in a friend.
Sometimes life becomes so heavy it feels like I'm wearing a large bathrobe and can't get it off. These are the times I turn to suicide as an answer. I feel like Carly, my mom and my baby sister are the only people who would care at all if I were just to stop existing.  This is why I love them...
A few days ago I was feeling suicidal Carly was able to talk me down to a point were I felt safe again.

Through the Valley and over the Grapevine to Grandmothers house I go!

Well me again.

Well on thursday I am going to hit the road! Me, My mother, and siblings (most of them anyway), will be driving to glendale AZ. It's going to be my grand mothers 90th birthday party and I wouldn't miss it for the world. My grandmother is the only one of my grandparents still alive. Two of my grandparents passed away at age 90 so that makes it all the more important to be there.

Purple ink and the smell of coffee

I drew flowered vines all over my left hand in a purple pen. It was fun and realaxing in a way. I liked how they turned out :) Maybe I'll post a pic and show you.  

I dedicated my book to my bestt friend Carly She is the wind beneath my wings and she is more than I deserve. I love her like a big sister <3

In other news I sort of had a melt down a school. I was having Rec and the voices stared screaming and cursing at me. I'm happy they didn't call the cops or anything.